Friends...

It's been quite a moody day today. Sometimes I feel it's really hard to maintain some friendships, maybe some ppl still very close with their best friends or gang will never think so. Ya..friendship is easy to maintain but for me it is hard especially with closed friends which we are once very good or closed to each other when we are already apart by distance and different of social environment, especially when we started to mix new friends and get to find new closer friends and have same interests together. Someone told me maybe I'm too free at the moment but others have their own things to busy so is normal to feel that i'd been neglected or abandoned sometimes. Hmm....true...maybe is because of that...=/ er......but.....No..no...when I was busy with my work last time, I did miss my old friends and try to keep in touch and stay contact with them. Seems like some are not interested anymore with this friendship. Since enter College life I'd tried so hard to still keeping in touch with old friends by Sms-ing, friendster-ing, MSN-ing (etc.) only some of them gave me respond. Once i stop contacting, most of them will never contact me at the first place. =( (so "sat bai")
I keep giving myself excuses, probably most of them are busying with their own things or maybe I am a friend which is not so important, not so good or not so special to them? Ya....it must be my own problems. Am I so irritating? Not as lovable like others? I always wonder....ya maybe I am. @.@" We can't stop people for hating you, for critisizing you sometimes. Nevermind....life still go on...=) At least I tried my best and Im happy enoughfor some of my friends still contacting me and making effort to do so ^^v

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